these expectations were so stressful. you had to do this, be there for that. weren't ready for that kind of commitment. you felt naive, uninformed, unprepared. it felt like a serious endeavor.

when the two of you were alone, you developed these habits. you teased eachother quite a bit. thats kinda who they were; jokey and prideful. "this is so fucking stupid" you thought to yourself.

then it clicked. it's kind of the point, isn't it?

if you're too focused on what you "should" be, you're taking away from what you "are."